It's not about knee jerk reactions anymore

In my old life, I was a free spirit-- going wherever the road led, no problem. Now that I've got a little one, that way of life isn't always okay anymore. Somethings I'm glad to not have to do anymore, like be a friend's plus one to a thing where their crush will be (you know where they bring you as a back up plan but usually ditch you), but things like impromptu adventures with friends I do miss.

Typically, things like new job opportunities I tend to follow my knee jerk reaction on because I don't have many options with my availability and I want to be doing the best I can with the time I can spare for work. I'm trying to be a responsible adult and stick to my plans but dang it, sometimes a girl just wants to hop in a car with no destination in mind-- just her friends and a playlist-- and go.

So on that idea I'll give old life a half a point, but mommy hood still wins out because the look Charlie gives me when he laughs is so amazing. I loved my old life but Charlie couldn't fit into it, so it has to change because I love him more than anything.

Adjusting isn't easy but nothing ever worth doing is. I've got to just remind myself of that tirelessly.