When he cries, it stresses me out immensely. Not because it frustrates me or it makes me angry, but because I feel like he's shouting "you're a terrible mom, you don't love me, you aren't good enough". He's this tiny person who is completely dependent on me and that's a ton of pressure for someone who doesn't want to completely fuck up. I love this little man so much, I watch him sleep completely enamored that when he is fussy I've got to do something. So now that he seems unable to sleep in his crib, I'm doing cosleeping and I'm unsure of how to introduce his crib in the mix. Hell, I put off showers and eating to avoid upsetting him.
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